worship leader to song writer?

Just over the past couple of weeks I have been getting into song writing. I like to have multiple ways of interpretation for my lyrics, for example, these two songs could be your average love song or they could be worship music. They were primarily written to be sung to God but I think making it so it could be a love song could be a way to outreach to nonbelievers through music. Since I doubt any nonbelievers would want to listen to christian or worship music. I wish I had some way to record some songs besides a digital camera so i'll be accepting donations for recording gear :) Song 1 is all done (except for a name haha) and song 2 is coming together quite nicely.

Song 1:
There is nothing I want
There is nothing I need
Other than your love
Other than you near

'Cause when I try to live
without You I fall apart
You alone are my only reason
To live and to breathe

And when I failed you
That day I left
The pain and sorrow
Washed over me

How many times with I miss the mark?
How many times will I fall short?
How many times will I wrong the right?

Song 2:

The war is won but the battle still rages
Lies of every kind are thrown at me
But still I fight with your unrelenting power
I will never give up, never back down

Through every season I will not lose sight of you
Such beauty cannot be forgotten
Though I struggle please don't leave me
This stumbling man will rise above

It is your love that fuels me through battle
My will to fight is for you alone
Anything between us will be destroyed
Nothing will keep us apart

To see your face I would climb mountains
For only a glimpse I would fight through hundreds
You alone give life meaning
Without you my life has no worth  

It Requires Patience.

It's been awhile since the last time I posted on here and it's either blog or do homework so naturally I chose this haha. My walk with the Lord is at an up right now. Last week I had a good study on patience and will continue to dig deeper on that topic. I've learned that patience is an expression of love, not only to those around you but also it's showing love to God. It also requires trust in God that he isn't just ignoring you but if you let him he'll put his perfect plan for your life in action. We must not lean on our own understanding but our lives are in the hands of the maker of heaven. I'm reading a book called I Kissed Dating Goodbye and it is really opening my eyes that for right now during my singleness I have an opportunity to grow closer to God and build relationships with my brothers and sisters in christ without the burdens of worrying about that "special someone". That being said, it requires patience. I can't go out looking for relationships because that would ruin my gift of singleness. I must put my trust in christ alone and that he will bless me with a wonderful wife if I remain faithful to him. And if he doesn't, then I can continue to serve him with my singleness and be thankful for the opportunity to give my all to him.

Fight Your Way.

So I decided to make a blog to share what I am learning in my faith and to help others who are struggling in theirs. But in reality, I'm the one struggling. It is way harder to climb out of that pit than to fall into it. I am on the worship team and will be preaching later this month and I need to get my head straight for both to happen. Because I don't want to be one of those fake leaders in the church that fall away in the faith. Lately having some good study time in the word and prayer has been incredibly hard for me. I know what I have to do, but my flesh (Dark Passenger) seems to get the hold of me. Function is a product of identity. That was Sean's big idea in his sermon called "Identity Crisis". You have to know who you are before you know what you are supposed to do. I am a christian. A follower of our Lord Jesus Christ. A warrior for the kingdom. A man of God has to know where he stands and when he does, he needs to stand there no matter what (Wild at Heart). My king, I will stand for you. I will surrender my life to you. I am so sorry for the disappointment I have caused you. Please help me to be strong and to stand for you as a man of God should. Please forgive me for my trespasses and please help me next time trouble comes. You always do provide a way out. I pray that you'll help me see that. I love you and will live my life for you.Your will, my hands. Amen.